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The emotional migraine crap

The prodrome (pre-migraine) phase is not all that bad usually. A little yawning, craving of chocolate and carboydrates and some neck pain. It is prior to the aura, which is obviously more annoying and spectacular in its variety. But sometimes the prodrome is a bitch. In particular the mood swings. It is either all the way one way or the other. The euphoria side (jittery, trembling, nervous energy, extreme insomnia, but elevated mood in a almost manic sort of way) is not all that bad... not really going to complain about a neurological high, when it helps get you through the day. The other side of the spectrum is far from pleasant. A all consuming, prodoundly deep and spontaneous depression. Hits you so hard you can't see it coming, while you are aware that it is highly deeper than would ever naturally occur, at least not without a darn good reason. You have to sjake it off like a blanket. And the fatigue that comes with it can drag you like lead. Anyway, I would not recommend it. Totally a drag. And not all that predictable.

Anyway, I would say the best treatment for these abrupt episodes of depression would be anything that can ride you through it. I prefer to minimalize all human contact, read sappy romance novels, listen to depression music and sleeping... sometimes all in one day.

The last couple of days have not been that bad pain wise. The aura has been mostly visual, like looking at a bad photograph with blotches of bright blue coming and going as long with some impressively bright visual snow. My doc decided to put me on the arthotec twice a day. I suppose it is an attempt at pain management and so far it is not that bad. However, although she seems to understand painkillers can cause rebounds, she does not believe this will, which of course is not true. However, I am determined to actually be able to work, so I am going with her idea to see what happens.
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