killer migraine kills the weekend

I was sick all week with a persistent and annoying head cold, which was hardly fun to work with. Then this killer migraine that just won't quit today, sapping any energy I thought I had and draining any mental energy I had left. The weekend is when I mellow and chill, so it is not like I am doing anything anyway. But it is also the time I spend on writing and a migraine does not help in that area. I get a lot of stress relief and enjoyment from working on novels so it it a drag when I am too wasted to do so.

The migraines have been numerous lately anway, asside from this brutal one. It must be from lack of sleep, but it hardly matter the reason. It is just draining on me. So I hope I revover enough to make it though the week. Long term goals are always make it through the work week.

You are the weakest link... good bye.

Where I live we are not feeling the blunt of the global resession like our southern neighbor, but enough to know the future is not predictable. Where I work there have been cutbacks and some of them mean a serious re-structuring of staff. We are not likely to get our annual pay raise to compensate for inflation. And it is obvious that if things to not revover in due time the next step is lay offs, no matter how sunny management tries to make things sound.

Normally speaking, this does not worry me so much, given I am not the primary income earner, nor ever will be, but job stability becomes an important consideration. And when I think about who would be cut from my area within the workplace naturally I am quite aware it would be me. The weakest link. While I may be managing my migraines, it is obvious I still get them with enough frequency to still be well within the classification of chronic. It has become apparent that taking away my treatment, for whatever reason, causes a very rapid decrease in functioning, to the point of not functioning. This can potential occur at any time. And medication adjustments are something that is always problamatic. Because I am sickly and I have a chronic condition, or two, it means I am simply a higher risk. Higher risk at getting ill, higher risk of health related complications and higher risk of short term leaves. Laying someone off is the easy way to get rid of someone like me without seeming to be bias against my medical situation. So I am simply at a higher potential for job loss and would have far more difficulty replacing that loss as well.

I have had three people in the last week inquire about my migraines. How they have been and such. And it is freaking me out. Why the interest, I wonder? Some people are symaptheric and just wanting to know how things are now, but others I wonder at the sudden curiosity and timing. In other words I have the very strong desire to be vague and outright lie about it. Put on the 'I'm fine' facade and smile. I want to be seen as dependable not expendable, and yet, obviously, even with the balance I have with my current treatment I know very well I cannot predict how that will be working for me a year from now. Which means even if I am willing to learn, play well with others, am skilled and experienced... I am still not as cost effective as everyone else. I always have the potential to become very ill very fast. I cannot say it won't happen, because every time it has happened, always to medication problems, it has been an unexpected and rapid decline. Three times in the last four years... not the greatest track record really. At these times, it usually takes minimum a few months to get to see my neuro, get a new med and wait for that med to work or not work. The point is, I still remember a time when I always had job security, because I was always a quick learner, a hard worker and valued as such. Now, due to something out of my control, I will always have that black mark against me... one that does affect my raises, my career path, my promotions. It makes that fear of losing it all again that much more real. I am terrified of a doctor thinking they should mess with the status quo because they don't think I should be on such and such and having that negatively affect my health too quickly for me to compensate. Worse, I fear what I am taking will suddenly stop working and finding a replacement will take too long.

So now is the time to invest, not spend. To horde and hunker down. Prepare for the potential storm. You just never know when the world will fall appart again.

Feeling a little sleep deprived?

Becoming forgetful? Try more sleep

"We find that the biochemical changes are simply not happening in the neurons of animals that are awake," Frank says. "And when the animal goes to sleep it's like you've thrown a switch, and all of a sudden, everything is turned on that's necessary for making synaptic changes that form the basis of memory formation. It's very striking."

Frank stresses that this study did not examine recalling memories. For example, these animals were not being asked to remember the location of their food bowl. "It's a mechanism that we think underlies the formation of memory." And not only memory; the same mechanism could play a role in all neurological plasticity processes.

As a result, this study could pave the way to understanding, on a molecular level, why humans need sleep, and why they are so affected by the lack of it. It could also conceivably lead to novel therapeutics that could compensate for the lack of sleep, by mimicking the molecular events that occur during sleep.

.... and thus, it explains why I remember nothing.

Health Blogosphere Scam

How the health blogosphere was scammed:

January 28, 2009, the HealthCentral Network announced the acquisition of a company called Wellsphere from its young CEO, Ron Gutman. Many of my fellow medical bloggers are familiar with Wellsphere as they’ve received countless email form letters from Wellsphere’s CMIO, Dr. Geoffrey Rutledge. The form letters are flattering, and suggest that the company would like to feature the blogger’s writing on their platform.

But what happens next is disturbing – to become a member of Wellsphere, bloggers provide access to their blog’s RSS feed. Hidden in the fine print is the blogger’s consent for Wellsphere to publish the entire feed (in other words, all of the blogger’s written work) and that once it’s published on their site, they own the intellectual property rights to it.

I don't have much to say about this, except to give everyone a heads up if they are not already aware of it. Or similar sites. I would point out that on such sites, which are an excellent resource for us, can be a great place to connect with people, we ought to take concerns for our privacy and only post blogs of a more general personal nature, rather than a detailed article, essay, critique.... and if they want to use your post about how you were blinded by a migraine aura and hit your house while backing out of your driveway they can go right ahead... funny or serious anecdote notes. Save the good stuff for being published, for money, or for your own blog content... or a blogger health site that does not take and re-use your content. Also if you become a content writer for them... 'show me the money, all the dozens of pennies', some sort of compensation. Or not, sometimes it is just a merging of sources. I have posted for content, free of charge for butyoudontlooksick, but I find it all for awareness, and it is strictly content for her site. It comes down to the fine print. I do like communities that bring bloggers together.

It is all too easy to get blind sided by these things. They should be shunned. Definately need a good shunning. But as Teri noted in her response, this particular site has been bought out by health central, which is far more responsible and reliable.

I would love to just redirect you to the new site...

But sadly the redirect function doesn't function. I will continue to persist hitting it and see if it will eventually do something. Or s...