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The sympathy is so overwhelming today

I got a full blown severe migraine at work today, which the Maxalt did not even touch in the least. I could not work, could not function and so I left early. Came home, took a painkiller, crawled into bed and hid under the covers. Then just lay their praying for a coma. It was blindingly painful... literally, the aura began to obscure all my vision and then when that was done I was left with a weird vertigo vision that kept jumping and things looked like they were moving.

So the bf comes home, walks in the bedroom, knows I'm there says 'hope your not facing the lights' and then turns them on. I jerk back and then shove my head deep into the blanket. Because that movement was damned agonizing when he left I cried, softly of course, as to not make any movement. Then he comes in and asks 'What's for supper?' or something like that. I could not hear him all that well. I went 'What?' in confusion. He grumbled something back and shut the door.

So nice to know someone cares. Maybe he was having a bad day, but I can freakin gaurentee mine was way worse than his.

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