Nightmares are really starting to irk me

I get the sort of nightmares brought on by sleep paralysis, mostly because sleep paralysis freaks me out. So sometime during the night, I feel awake, but then realize I can't move and then I freak out and wake myself up. Sometimes more than once a night. Thing is now when I fall asleep I dream I am awake, but that something feels wrong, everything is off, which freaks me out and I try to get up, realize I can't move, or move sluggishly, and then freak out and litterally yank myself awake. Honestly this is becoming so frequent my nightmare of waking up, but being lucid dreaming and aware of my inability to move, is rather causing worse sleep problems than my insomnia. Because once I wrench myself awake, it is hard to fall back to sleep. Also since if I do fall back to sleep right away, the same thing tends to happen. Today I wrenched myself awake and swear I saw this shadowy figure standing by the bed, leaning inward... which seriously freaked me out, such that I had to get up a bit before I tried again. Fact is, I have never gotten why people like lucid dreaming as it feels wierd to me. Sure when in a dream, realizing you are dreaming can be fun. But when you have sleep parlysis, you are more aware than you should be, certainly aware enough to know you are in that natural state of sleep paralysis... so it gives you a feeling you are awake, but not quite and to me that just feels wrong. That sense of wrongness freaks me out even before I realize I have mobility issues.

6 comments:

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

Weird I was just reading about the very same symptoms on someone elses blog including the shadowing figure....
http://eawake.blogspot.com/2010/10/narcolepsy-and-chronic-migraine.html

N.Albert said...

Wow Winny... that is awesome, she has the exact same sorts of experiences I do. It is literally impossible to sleep like that, and I have deep sleep issues as it is, huge trigger. Maybe I am a narcolepic as well... huge irony given I am known for being an incurable insomniac!

Jessica said...

I was just going to write the same thing as Winny! I read a similar post on Elizabeth's blog yesterday. A girlfriend of mine suffers from the same experiences and says it is truly frightening.

I was curious how things were going on the work front...what did you end up doing???

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

That's what I thought!!! I am in a headache discussion group with a narcopleptic who says insomnia was HER symptom. Exactly the opposite of what I thought narcoplepsy was. Hope it is an answer - I am always looking for a "causitive factor" for my problems. Severe headache pain seems to go with it.

N.Albert said...

Hey Jessica... I am on leave from work until December, then I am not so sure. Maybe longer.

Square Peg Guy said...

In the lucid dreams that I've had, I've been aware that I'm dreaming, but I'm not aware of my sleeping, physical body. Instead, I get all my sensations from my dream body, which is moving around and even flying. That's what makes it so enjoyable. But if I were aware that I'm lying in bed and having a dream, I wouldn't enjoy that.

I recall that there's that initial moment of awareness, and at that moment there's a Direction you need to take: to either become involved in the dream or to wake up. I guess if I were to wake up, I'd experience what you experience.

Shadowy figure.... There are certain areas of the brain that, when exposed to electronic stimulus, cause a perception of a presence. Do you have much in the way of electronics in the bedroom, such as cell phone or cordless phone, wireless router? Or do you live right above a subway line or under an elevated train?

Anyway, good luck!

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