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#Fibromyalgia, skin and #Eczema

I swear FMS has more symptoms than humanly possible.  A while back, maybe seven years, I had a spontaneous skin reaction that looked like an allergic reaction.  Erratically spontaneous and if I scratched, at all, blood would rush to the surface hickey style, then usually bruise.  That confused a few doctors, but the consensus seemed to be eczema.  Not the sort a person would get at the elbows and fingers, the sort that could be anywhere and certainly anywhere where I happened to scratch (in which case usually my arms or legs... but that first year, a few bug bites and I scratched all along my back making long red welts that really did look like an insane allergic reaction).  Otherwise I have no problems with it and you can't tell I have it at all.  So out went my little shower scrubbie things and in came the dove soap and moisturizers.  It is irritating, but manageable, assuming I don't get an itch, or god-forbid a bug bite.  It has in the past caused scaring, because sometime…

Got lucky and killed my status migraine

I have had this acute horrific status migraine since Friday, it was a hormonal trigger one, and those are the ones that go on strong no matter what you do.  Since I had already used a Triptan on monday, I used my 12 hour release painkiller for Tuesday.  Got me though half the day, but it was brutal after.  So today, when I got up, I used the 12 hour release one again.  It worked a little for a few hours and then not at all.  Or I should say it was decreasing the amount of pain I felt but the status migraine was at the intense as hell stage so even that painkiller could not bring the pain down enough the function at work.  So I took one of my four hour painkillers, tramacet.  And I think that was just a little too strong, since I was almost completely pain free.  My head only hurt if I tilted it a certain way or moved it too quickly, but otherwise I was feeling no pain.  usually I would say if a painkiller completely knocks out the pain then I have used too much, since the idea is to b…

Reflecting on positive wish fullfillment

Perhaps you have heard of the pseudo-psychology-philosophy that what you will out to the universe can be manifested.  Obviously I am a tad skeptical of that movement, but I am well aware of the power of positive thinking.  Sure I like to get a good rant on to vent my frustrations  (damn you unfair world, body, indifferent doctors, work...).  Ignoring other people, workplaces, society and the medical community and just focusing on the essence of our personal well-being and emotional health does this idea that it is possible for us to get effective treatment long term, that there is hope of that, a viable strategy?  Obviously there was a time when I did not think so and not having that killed my will to survive.  I literally did not see the point of a pain filled existence, of a torment without end... seemed rather cruel for people to expect me to endure that.  I often hear people with chronic pain say they are existing, not living and I agree, once all facets of my life were cut away t…

Chronic Pain blows

I think there was a time when I did not know what it felt like to hurt somewhere and to be tired all the time, but I can't remember it.  Which is a way of the body and mind adapting to new circumstances allowing us to adapt because otherwise we would remember what it was like to be healthy and do normal things... and that is too painful to handle.  So we develop a new normal, a baseline of pain that is within tolerable limits.  For example while I always have some FMS pain everywhere and maybe more in one area, my baseline is so normal it barely registers unless I am reminded by a specific movement.  It gets worse and sometimes it is crippling, but the norm for me is tolerable.  Likely was not in the beginning, which is why I did less and less, because in the beginning it was not normal, it was painful. 

What blows is that this is a process that keeps going on until your baseline of pain is quite a bit over normal tolerable limits.  We are talking superhuman pain tolerance, which…