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Less than perfect timing

I'm trying to quit smoking... again.  I've mentioned I have troubles with it because, well, when I get a boat load of pain smoking helps me feel relaxed.  Also there is the benefit to having a bad habit that will not prolong my life, which in my more self destructive moments seems like a dang fine idea. I can't use most quit smoking products since they seem to have the side effect of constant migraine-ism. So I have been using the nicorette 2mg mints and it has been working decently I must say. Granted for no real reason I get randomly irritated through the day and feel like snapping, berating, snarking or choking people who talk, touch or look at me. In all honesty it has just been some mild irritation and that is quite a bit better than the last time I tried to quit, so that is good. I don't have any smokes around me which is also good, since I don't have the will power to not smoke them if they are right there, but I can certainly resist the temptation to warm u…

It hurts when I move like this... well, then stop moving like that

I went to my first physiotherapy appointment today for the assessment stage of things. First, I suspect the physiotherapist is like eighteen max but since he had to have had some training he must just look young... or I'm getting old and relatively speaking he looks young. Not that it is important, just thought I'd share that. Secondly, I had a migraine at the time, which, obviously, it hardly surprising. But it was fairly bad since I'd treated it with a triptan earlier in the day but it was one of those ones that comes back, stronger and nastier about five hours later. So I was rather... fuzzy headed and really just focusing on getting it done.  Naturally he asked me a lot of questions and naturally the answers I gave were less that concise.  Especially with time.  People should not ask me anything to do with time-lines.  I am really not aware of how much time has passed since the pain was more than the usual pain because the pain part is pretty damned consistent. A month…

When things get worse...

There is always a time that comes where the pain begins to own me. Preventing me from doing anything and greatly tormenting me when I choose to anyway. Sometimes I ignore it and think it will get better, I just need to get through this bad spell... and it does not get better because things become extremely stressful from missing work and just plain stressful from trying to work.

So I have made a plan to do things that will help get me through this rough spell without having to take another medical leave of absence.

First, I will be going to physiotherapy to help with the bad neck pain I have that is making my migraines so much worse.  It is not even describable how painful it is when my neck is like this and I have a migraine.  And physio was the only thing that helped the last time my neck was out if sorts and causing pain down to my shoulders and restricting mobility.  They have the massage on the neck, heat bads and other techniques.  They also give you exercises to do yourself.

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What a pain in the neck

I was in way too much pain today.  Way, way too much.  So much that I think it was an insanely bad idea to go into work, yet missing two days in a row is an insanely bad idea for entirely different reasons.  So I went and the lack of sleep and migraine I have had since Monday made it all rather unpleasant.  The nasty neck pain that is constantly bad but horrifically bad when I move a certain way brought the pain to a level even I with my super human pain tolerance was having a real hard time with.  By the way, I think I am immune to pain killers  or  this pain was way beyond what they could handle.  Also, Tiger Balm arthritis rub is not a lovely perfume to wear to work but feels rather nice.  I should have slathered it all over my head.  I think there is a possibility I broke my neck while sleeping  or  the migraines broke my neck from their existence.  There is honestly not much more I can say about it.  Just Insanely Bad.  I did make another doctor appointment because I feel my doct…

Paint me discouraged

I've been trying my damndest to get to work every day, missing hopefully only one day a month.  It has been very diffiuclt and I am failing.  Like always I think I'll just keep trying till my neuro appointment and then hopefully things will get better.  But my neuro appointment is always so damn far away and I need help now.  It makes me fustration and guilty and I can deny it is bothering me all I want, but the fact is, it is a real struggle.  Monday was a bad day for me, one I barely got through with a lot of painkillers.  I could not sleep that night, the pain kept me awake, then a horrible migraine nightmare when I finially fell asleep woke me up and by 4am it was clear it was not going to be a restful night in any sense of the word.  So the wicked migraine in the morning caused me to miss work.  I had hoped to make it till Wednesday because if I could make it that far it would have been all right as I work the later shift on Thursday and an extra couple hours of sleep usu…

It is all about timing

I was lucky this month when I caught that hormonal migraine stretch early.  As I have said before hormonal migraines are brutal... a trigger that keeps on going for a week, such that the migraine is continious and very difficult to treat.  The most effective treatment I have ever had for these was strong anti-inflammatories taken for that week, unfortunately, strong anti-inflammatories can do some damage to the digestive system and in my case they did, such that I can't even take an Advil these days.  However, triptans just don't seem to cut it for these migraines and if these migraines are not treated aggressively they can lead to a status migraine that far outlasts the trigger itself.  The best thing to do is take a triptan as soon as this sort of migraine begins, but, with chronic migraines treating them is all about timing and knowing when to treat a migraine and knowing when to just endure because to avoid the risk of a rebound headache not every migraine can be treated. …

I love darkness

It is no secret I loath light and avoid it at all costs.  I wear the darkest of sunglasses right up until it is too dark to see with them.  I wear my pink tinted glasses at work to filter out the nasty, nasty florescent light that was invented by the devil.  I decrease the brightness and contrast on computer screens to the extent others cannot see the screen.  I read in very dim lighting better than in regular lighting.  I use low wattage light bulbs away from my direct line of sight.  My house may have windows but they all have the blinds closed and tilted upward to eliminate any light seepage.  In the bedroom I keep the blinds closed, have curtains closed and have those curtains pinned to the wall... so it is a bedroom I could process film in if I desired.  When driving at night I see better without traffic signs and other headlights, other headlights obscure everything and it is simply faith the road is still there that keeps me from diving off of it to get away from that light... …