Skip to main content

Let's do the time warp

It has been a very intense few days of migraines.  Pain levels have been very high which rapidly decreased my brain function.  My new coworkers noticed this as well.  While chronic pain is an invisible disability to a point, once it gets to a certain level if a person knows you even on a basic level they will notice the chance.  Pain just dampens your personality.  Muffles it.  You use all your energy and consentration to try and focus beyond the pain to get things done, as in to understand what people are saying and to walk and talk.  It gives you that sort of zombie effect.  A glazed look in the eyes.  Delayed reaction time.  And lack of any real expression.  Those are the days I ardently wish I did not have to work in such pain, but I don't make the rules I just play the game.  I suck at the game and I don't get the rules but I keep playing anyway even though the fun has been sucked right out of it.  So that has been my week.  Just a lot of getting through the minute to get through the hour to get through the day to get through the week.  What I like about my current work enviroment is that my co-workers are just as great as my previous work enviroment but the overall atmosphere is less stressfull; workload is the same, expectations are the same, but the manager is very supportive and motivational which rather helps me feel positive about getting through the day.  It is a very cohesive enviroment.  Nevertheless, brutal migraines make for a brutal week.  And I sort of lose track of the time.  Because nothing really gets done, beyond work because after work my brain just shuts down.

What has also been a concern and has been for months now is the level of intensity to my migraine auras.  The last couple of days have just shown me how crazy acute migraines can be with the auras being as bad as they are.  Balance problems, vertigo, problems focusing my eyes, warping vision, tingling all over, jaw pain, teeth pain, visual snow so intense I can see the sparkles with my darkest sunglasses on, ringing ears, hearing loss...  Nutty, nutty, nutty.
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Signs the pain is getting the best of you

100 Symptoms of Fibromyalgia

There was a site that had this and I had linked to it on Tumblr but it is gone. So I had to hunt down someone who found my post and posted the whole thing in a forum. Anyway it is around but I'm posting it here so I will not have to hunt it down to reference it. Now we all know the major symptoms are the wide-spread pain, but our pain isn't just muscle pain... it can be nerve types of pain as well, and the fatigue and the insomnia. And even among symptoms there are some far more frequent than others, but it should be said we have categories... like the cognitive dysfunction, which is a broad one that has more than one symptom and we often just say fibrofog. The insomnia... more than one sleeping disorder. So the list is interesting.

__ Fatigue, made worse by physical exertion or stress
__ Activity level decreased to less than 50% of pre-illness activity level
__ Recurrent flu-like illness
__ Sore throat
__ Hoarseness
__ Tender or swollen lymph nodes (glands), especiall…

Getting through the high intensity pain flares #Blogboost

The crowded me out of the brain. Making no room for anything else. Distraction was impossible. You feel almost frantic with the pain but must be still.

What do you do? To get through it when you have no distraction?

I ask me this as I am really in the depths of a 9 level frantic level of pain right now. Hoping maybe some writing will be a distraction, but it isn't. As I said, the pain crowds the brain. I have to focus real hard to write and my head isn't clear. Too much pain to focus well. Things become quite difficult to do. 

I will say this: We cannot function. We have to just cope with the pain.

But we are Immersed in the pain, we what do we do?
We can and should rest and get through it the best we can. Here are some of the things I do to get through it.

Relaxation breathing: I can't meditate when in high levels of pain. It just makes me think about how much pain I am in. Just not a good idea. But I do do relaxation breathing. I close my eyes. I focus on my breathing. I even…