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Migraine Awareness Month #21 Oblivion.

Migraine Awareness Month #21 Oblivion.


Oblivion

That sort of says it all. Seeking Oblivion.


o·bliv·i·on  (-blv-n)n. (thefreedictionary.com/oblivion)
1. The condition or quality of being completely forgotten: "He knows that everything he writes is consigned to posterity (oblivion's other, seemingly more benign, face)" (Joyce Carol Oates).
2. The act or an instance of forgetting; total forgetfulness: sought the great oblivion of sleep.
oblivion
noun
2. neglect, anonymity, insignificance, obscurity, limbo, nothingness, unimportance Most of these performers will fail and sink into oblivion.
3. extinction, annihilation, eradication, obliteration An entire section of the town was bombed into oblivion.


I think of wishing for oblivion... for unconsciousness, for nothingness, for just a coma like state to suck the pain away. Other times I just wish I could obliterate the migraine itself... just utterly destroy it.

And sometimes I think the pain is so intense or the vertigo and pain combo is so intense it drives my Consciousness and Awareness into a state of obliviousness... into senselessness, insensibility, limbo... into a state where action is definitely not possible but neither is thought, it is just this warping of pain and spinning and flashing lights and shifting nausea... just symptoms. No me at all. Oblivion.

 June 2013, Migraine and Headache Awareness Month, is dedicated to Unmasking the Mystery of Chronic Headache Disorders. The 2013 Migraine and Headache Awareness Month Blog Challenge is a project of FightingHeadacheDisorders.com.



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