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Twenty one pilots 'Migraine'


Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I'm alone
I've got a migraine
And my pain will range from up down and sideways
Thank God it's Friday
'Cause Fridays will always be better than Sundays
'Cause Sundays are my suicide days
I don't know why they always seem so dismal
Thunderstorms, cloud, snow, and a slight drizzle
Whether it's the weather or the letters by my bed
Sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head
Let it be said what the headache represents
It's me defending in suspense
It's me suspending in a defenseless test
Being tested by a ruthless examiner
That's represented best by my despress...ing thoughts
I do not have writer's block
My writer just hates the clock
It will not let me sleep, I'll get some sleep when I'm dead
And sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
 Shadows will scream that I'm alone
But I know we've made it this far, kid
yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm not as fine as I seem, pardon
Me for yelling I'm telling you that green gardens
Are what's growing in my psyche
It's a different me
A difficult beast feasting on lumbered down trees
freeze frame
Please let me paint a mental picture portrait
Something you won't forget, it's all about my forehead
Deny what is important, holds back contents that make Pandora's box contents' look non-violent
Behind my eyelids are islands of violence
My mind ship-wrecked, this is the only land my mind could find
I did not know it was such a violent island
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions
They're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin
And I know that I can fight it or let the lion win
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find
'Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I'm alone
But I know we've made it this far, kid
yeah, yeah, yeah
And I will say that we should take a day to break away from all the pain our brain has made
The game is not played alone
And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it
And keep it frozen and know that life has a hopeful undertone


Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I'm alone
But I know we've made it this far, kid
We've made it this far, we've made it this

I really do love this song. The lyrics express the experience pretty well don't they? 'Am I the only one I know Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat Shadows will scream that I'm alone' ... 'Being tested by a ruthless examiner That's represented best by my despress...ing thoughts I do not have writer's block  My writer just hates the clock It will not let me sleep, I'll get some sleep when I'm dead And sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head.' ... 'And I know that I can fight it or let the lion win I begin to assemble what weapons I can find 'Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind.'

I really have to thank this guy for making a song that truly expresses the experience as the battle it is. I think that makes the chorus all that more powerful to me really. Raises awareness. And... we battle on right? We made it this far, right?
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