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Thinking about lyrics today

I sometimes use lyrics in a poster I am making for a health page because lets face it no wants to read my poetry on the subject. Or maybe they do, but I don't often feel comfortable letting people read it all the time. And music hits us in certain ways. Some lyrics can mean something different to you than they were designed to mean... and that is fine. They song and music still speaks to you in some way.

These lyrics come to mind when I am in the dark, huddled with my pain. 
So they have meaning to mean in that moment


These Bee Gees lyrics have meaning as well. When you think that life is
just playing some joke on you. You can laugh and smile with you facade, but
the joke is on you. And when the pain is too much to bear... no one notices.


But you know it occurred to me some of the the songs I think about as relating to a pain experience were written about addiction. I think that is because with addiction there is suffering as well as guilt and we can relate to both.

The first is Blue October's 'Hate me'

The chorus expresses that guilt we feel for all our failings and how maybe it would be better if others hated us for it.
 "Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you."

And lines like: "In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind"

The second is 'Hurt' originally by Johnny Cash

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Then I watch this to amuse myself. :)

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