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#MHAM #MHAMBC Day 15 #migraine Only human

Day 15 for June migraine awareness month alternate topic: 'Human' what does the dance, the commentary, the song or the story inspire you to say?

It is a pretty powerful song especially when you thing of chronic migraines and all the things we try to do with chronic migraines. We are only human and really there is so much pain a person has the capacity to function through... and to expect someone to do that all the time? Is nuts. Just freaking nuts. I think people forget we are only human. We are not superhuman, even though we develop a massive pain tolerance, hide the pain very well and try to push through it all the time. It all takes a toll.
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

Think about the first few lines I highlighted from the lyrics here. I can fake a smile. I can force a laugh. We do that all the time. We develop a facade and we use that all the time to get through work because it is how a person functions in the workplace. To hide the pain from loved ones, so they do not worry as much. 'Be a good machine' ... it feels like sometimes this is precisely what society wants of us despite our pain, as horrific as that is. As long as we silently suffer, then it is all good and no one has to care or do anything about it. 

But the fact is, we are only human. Pain is a heavy burden. It is a wound that never heals and never bleeds, and is never seen for what it is or the damage that it can do. Doctors don't even seem to comprehend the damage pain alone can do. I certainly know. And I have broken from it. I have fallen from it. I have felt the stigma of others like knives in the chest from it. And I do not ever get a break from it. It is a constant battle that I cannot escape. Everyone else gets down time from their stress, with chronic pain there just is no down time. It shadows you no matter what you are doing. We get through it. We do. And damn we are strong people I think to fight this battle. But we are human people. We struggle with it. Not every day is a good day. Some days are just mentally and emotionally difficult. We get tired of it all. But then we do it all again the next day. 

Twitter: nikki_Albert

Day #1 post “What would you do if your dream of a totally pain- and symptom-free life, came true?”
Day #2 post "Bed of Clouds poem to ponder"
Day #3 post "Recurrent dreams"
Day #4 post  "Still I Rise"
Day #5 post "Monsters"
Day #6 post "Ways to raise awareness."
Day #7 post "What I do for Awareness"
Day #8 post "Do not forget to live"
Day #9 post "What fear can teach us."
Day #10 post  "Twilight is the best light."
Day #11 post "dream a little dream"
Day #12 post "Who moved my cheese"
Day #13 post "Faces of Migraine"
Day 14 post "Mulan"

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