More cowbell

I think... I really think my life needs more cowbell. If you like Saturday Night Live then you will get the reference anyway. Love that skit.

By that I mean it needs more Joy. I think we could all use more joy but definitely those of us with chronic illness. Fatigue I think really drains us a lot. We are just really dragged down to the point we have no energy to engage in the things that give us joy.

We should not avoid joyness. Even if that is watching a joy that makes us laugh a little.

Nothing wrong with being a night owl... but the world isn't

(Source: s-obrenos)

I have been an insomniac since I was a kid. I have some fond memories of it really. I don't think it ever really bothered me that much as a kid that I Could stay up later than everyone else. I enjoyed the peace and quiet of it. I love to read at that time. To write. Still do. It only became problematic when I went to university and had more early classes. I mentioned it more than a few times to doctors but they do not do anything for chronic insomnia... except give you those some sleep hygiene tips you have already learned about years ago. And those tips are essentially:

 • Avoid stimulants such as caffeine up to four hours prior to bedtime. Caffeine builds up in the body through the day so it is best to avoid after lunch. (we should avoid simulants anyway… but seriously this is hard to do when you feel so fatigued from Not Sleeping)

• Maintain a consistent sleep pattern of waking up and going to bed at the same time. (Well going to bed at the same time, not necessarily falling asleep at the same time obviously)

• Avoid late night snacks. If you do snack stick to small snacks that have a lot of carbohydrates in them as these tend to aid in making you feel drowsy. (I pretend chips count, but let's pretend I didn't say that.) • Never exercise before bedtime but try to exercise regularly even if that exercise is going for short walks, yoga or doing some stretches.

 • Have no distractions in the bedroom. No TV, video games, iPhone or laptops. Do not do your work in the bedroom. Or snack. The bedroom should be reserved for sleeping or sex and we don't want our brain to be associating the space with other waking activities.

• Make the room as comfortable as possible for sleep. Use blackout curtains to reduce light or a sleep mask. Use some method to reduce background noise whether that is earplugs, meditation music or a white noise machine. Ensure the room is not too hot or too cold.

• Do not take frequent naps but if you feel that you need to keep them under an hour. (I have a hard time with this one. I have the overpowering need to nap sometimes… being sleep deprived and all. But sometimes I set my iPhone alarm to wake me. And sometimes I ignore it)

 • Do not watch TV at least an hour before bed because it is stimulating for the brain and makes it difficult to relax. The same can likely be said for being on the computer. (Also if you are an insomniac like me, don't read a good book… or you might just read it to the end. Read a crappy book instead.)

I think most of us insomniacs are familiar with all this. I know my insomnia became more complex when I began to work. I learned for example I cannot work shift work, because my already horrible sleep habits do not adjust to different sleep cycles well At All... and this leads to a significant increase in migraines. I also learned that working itself, as in getting up early for work every day, leads to migraines because I am sleep deprived. I do not fall asleep well into the night. I do not stay asleep. But I have to get up early. It was the reason I was put on a sleeping pill in fact. My doctor at the time said I was in fact sleep deprived which she could determine by all the sleep paralysis I was getting as well as the morning migraines. They do help a little. Help for the morning migraines. Never helped for the status migraines though.

Which brings me to the additional problems with sleep. That being painsomnia. When you are in too much pain to sleep. This is quite an additional problem and a difficult one to overcome. I have tried self-hypnosis... but to be honest I can't even be hypnotized so no idea how I would do that on myself. I have tried meditation, and that at least has a calming effect. I have tried sleepy time teas. I have tried biofeedback.

The fact remains that since I am not working I do not fight it as much. If my body wants to stay up later and get up later, and this works for pain as well, then I will do it. For now. I like staying up late. I have always been a night owl. I always enjoy the time to myself I guess. And have always loathed mornings with a passion. Not to mention if I get up early, I get a migraine early, which is no fun at all.

It just doesn't work for anyone else. Appointments. Calling insurance people. More appointments. All these commitments the insurance company wants. Then the pain clinic. None of which are on my sleep cycle. Which is disruptive and migraine inducing. Sometimes I think I should just force myself back into societies routine, but that never worked out for me. Something in-between?

(Source: kingof5hadows)

Where is that #Pain?

The location of pain is actually a rather complicated issue. Especially when you get into chronic pain where the trauma to the body is long since recovered, or was never there to begin with. New research suggests a lot of pain is really in the brain and less in the body, when it is chronic.

Science has almost adopted the idea that pain ought to be all in the brain. There is sophisticated research showing that some brain areas light up more when we are in pain. When we recover, these areas stop lighting up. There are even therapies directed at “retraining” the brain, which can sometimes reduce, or even occasionally cure chronic pain.
So scientists have developed the following concept: after injury or operation our tissues will heal, and normally all goes well - unless we are “vulnerable”. There is some evidence suggesting that when we are poor, smoke, are depressed, stressed, or have had chronic pain in the past, we may be more likely to develop chronic pain.
The idea is that the vulnerable brain retains memory of the trauma with its associated pain: it develops “abnormal neuroplasticity”. A good example is phantom limb pain. Following amputation many people develop pain the non-existing limb; they are more likely to do so if they had experienced a lot of pain before the amputation, so clearly the brain must be involved. Science 2.0

It makes a lot of sense. A lot of new treatments take this theory into account as well. Retrain the brain.

As with other chronic pains, many of us experts have been assuming the main problem for these patients is in the brain. But it recently emerged that the blood of patients with this condition (Complex Regional Pain Syndrome) carries specific immune substances, termed “autoantibodies”. These substances can probably cause pain by binding to peripheral tissues, prompting sensory nerves to misfire – although the exact pathway is not understood. Misfiring of sensory nerves results in a state where the central nervous system, including the brain, has become “wound up”.
In CRPS, peripheral nerves may thus play a role comparable to electronic transistors: with very low abnormal peripheral input generated by the autoantibodies, the nerves steer a massive central abnormality. Without trauma these newly discovered antibodies are probable harmless; the trauma-induced inflammation is required to render them harmful.
In fact, these antibodies may only be present for a limited time, during a “window of vulnerability”, in sufficiently high concentration to cause harm after trauma; the same trauma sustained either earlier or later may not trigger CRPS. The good news is that there are treatment methods, originally established for the treatment of other diseases designed to reduce or remove auto-antibodies, which can now been tried. Science 2.0
 This is pretty fascinating for trauma related research into chronic pain. Understanding the nature of pain and chronic pain goes a long way into developing treatments. Chronic pain is after all a lot more complicated than people tend to thing in the body. 

To #Live is to #suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering

"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering."

I find a great deal of truth in this quote... and not simply because I have chronic pain, which of course would literally be to live and suffer. The straight up fact is life is complicated and comes with all sorts of wonderful complications and pains. Also joys and sorrows.

Think of the Buddhist saying 'Life is suffering'.

The Buddha says, "Life is suffering". What does "suffering" mean? The sutras say: "Impermanence therefore suffering". Everything is impermanent and changeable. The Buddha says that life is suffering because it is impermanent and ever-changing. For example, a healthy body cannot last forever. It will gradually become weak, old. sick and die. One who is wealthy cannot maintain one’s wealth forever. Sometimes one may become poor. Power and status do not last as well, one will lose them finally. From this condition of changing and instability, although there is happiness and joy, they are not ever lasting and ultimate. When changes come, suffering arises.
Thus, the Buddha says life is suffering. Suffering means dissatisfaction, impermanence and imperfection. If a practising Buddhist does not understand the real meaning of "suffering" and think that life is not perfect and ultimate, they become negative and pessimistic in their view of life. Those who really understand the teaching of the Buddha will have a totally different view. We should know that the theory of "Life is suffering" taught by the Buddha is to remind us that life is not ultimate and lasting, and hence we should strive towards Buddhahood — a permanent and perfect life." Note
Suffering is a far broader term to me than pain. Pain comes first and is primary... then from that stems suffering which is secondary. We have pain, then we react to that pain with suffering. I always feel there is some control over my suffering then, whereas I may not have much control over the initial impact of the pain, or not as much control. Pain is treated with medication, exercise and various other treatments and sometimes it works and sometimes it just does not. Suffering likewise is treated in various different ways. We see psychologists, we do biofeedback and meditation, as well as hobbies and distraction techniques. Sometimes I think we do more to confront suffering than we do the actual pain stimulus. We think about how we 'think' about pain. What our belief structures are about pain. Do we have negative thought patterns in regards to our illness? Is there something impeding how we cope with pain? Are there ways to decrease our suffering?

To me that is the 'meaning' behind suffering. Suffering is inevitable as it is universal. To survive a life that may have more pain than we would like, in whatever form that takes, we have to look at what we believe about suffering. What meaning we ascribe to it. Do we believe that it is permanent? Do we believe that it is uncontrollable? I cannot believe that. I know that suffering is something that can and does have a strong impact on our wellbeing. At times it can be overwhelming. However, I know that if we have at least some moderate control over the pain (which does seem necessary) then we can begin to find ways to manage our suffering.

I believe also in many ways pain is a meaning creating experience. Even though it is fundamentally pointless we do define our experiences by it. We do create stories defined by our victories over it. How our character is defined by it. How we are changed by it; positively or negatively. And we also have control over what story we tell. Is it a story of victory or defeat?

Behind that #smile

"The single most clever thing about a smile is how well it can hide sadness."

Smiles and laughter can hide sadness, suffering and pain immensely well. It always amazed me at how well.

First, take chronic pain for example. With chronic pain you have to function in daily life with pain. So you do. This means tolerating and enduring a certain amount of pain all the time. And you can smile and laugh while in pain. Yet, people never could seem to fathom this. That it was possible to smile and laugh and be in pain at the same time. It has to do with pain behaviors and how those are not pain behaviors. How people with chronic pain have long since learned to mask their pain behaviors. Long since learned to mask their pain. Long since learned to endure and tolerate a certain amount of pain. Not to say, that some levels we cannot simply endure and tolerate, but we have our levels we can mask quite well. This issue with typical pain behaviors lacking and normal behaviors such as laughter and smiles being there instead seems impossible. But it is indeed possible. Makes the pain less readily seen and understood. Makes it diminished in the eyes of others.

Pain leads to suffering. All pain comes with a level of suffering because pain brings with it a level of emotional reaction. We mask the suffering behind smiles for many reasons. Most often because we do not want loved ones to see the depth of our suffering. We do not want anyone to see the depth of our suffering. We feel like we might drown in the depth of our suffering. Words cannot even breach it if we tried to.

Depression can add another layer to this. Or it can in fact be its own layer. I have in my time suffered from depression. It is very isolating. It consumes your perception of reality and doesn't ever give you a break. It shadows your every thought. You can mask it with smiles and laughter, that feel fake and hallow to you, but no one ever notices they are different. Empty. The difference is that depression is not sadness. It is something that swallows sadness. It is the numbness that follows all emotion.

Yes, it amazes me what we hide behind our smiles, so well. Our facades. In a way making ourselves more invisible with our invisible disabilities. But words can fail us sometimes. Words seem insufficient at times.

I often find writing to be a way to express myself the truest of all forms. Sometimes in poetry. Sometimes on this blog. I think it is productive to find methods to communicate our emotions and suffering in different ways. At least to get it out. Once you get it out... you find a bit of peace inside. You can't contain everything behind a smile. A mask.

#Functionally #suffering

Functional. I wrote this about the word because I do loathe it. When I used to work if I was in a lot of pain, but I was There, and I hid the pain and I did my job... I was Functional. It didn't matter in the least bit to anyone how much I suffered, just that I was there. Just that I did my job.

It is the expectation that I would mask the pain, because you simply cannot show the pain or talk about it in front of customers ... that would be inappropriate. It was expected that I would come to work, because how bad could it be? Didn't I work with them all the time? The guilt they put on me when I called in sick, well, that was its own hell.

So what that I suffered underneath? So what that I could barely concentrate due to all that pain? Could not think straight. So remember customers names or faces. Or speak properly with all my words just getting stuck up there in my brain. And typos... all the damn typos. And the noise. And lights. And smells. Made my eyes feel like they were being stabbed. And nausea rolled in my stomach. But I could not eat all day anyway, or I'd be in the bathroom every ten minutes... another fun migraine symptom people rarely talk about. If your not throwing up, then it'll come out the other end. Nothing stays in you for long. So no food. That is a migraine trigger too, but you can't work in the bathroom all day.

My worst fear being off work has always been that I will improve slightly. Not a lot. Not dramatically. Just slightly. Just enough to go back to work and suffer 95% of the time, rather than 100% of the time. That is my worst nightmare. I know that highly episodic migraines pay the same price as chronic, and chronic at 15 a month, is the same as daily chronic.... but doctors don't. Hell, they don't even understand the price we pay as it Is. So if I have a couple migraine free days that will be a Success to them. And I will love it to, but functionally it is No Different. Functionally I will suffer the same. Functionally I will be pretending to function while suffering all day long, just so I can get home to suffer in peace. Yet, I know that is the goal. The end game. You see, you get offered a lot of help when you are not working. When you are working they don't care that you suffer. When you are not working, they care that you are not working. They want to get you working. So they want to figure out how to manage your suffering enough to get you working again. Even though it will not be much. Even though working itself will likely ruin it all because of the trigger infused enviroment. Evan so, they All want to help you because society thinks that is such a shame. Then when you are working again... they will not care about your suffering. Because you will be Functionally suffering.

Deserving of #pain #management and a better #QualityOfLife

“The tragedy of life is not death but what we let die inside of us while we live.” ~Norman Cousins 

The tragedy of chronic pain is poor chronic pain management which leads to poor quality of life. We let a lot die inside of us while trying to survive the pain, because we need to survive the pain. We slice and dice our lives, cutting out so many things just to have the energy to endure that pain. All those many things we cut out are the very things, if we were getting chronic pain management, they tell you to do to help with your mood. Get out of the house, take a walk, socialize with people, with friends, do things for yourself, find a hobby of something you have never done before to take up some of your day learning something new. So many things they suggest we try to help with mood and isolation and depression... that we had cut out because of the intensity of pain, the lack of ability to cope, the need to just survive through it and the completely lack of chronic pain management.


Lack of pain management stems from lack of understanding from doctors. Because of lack of training they received to begin with. Yet you have to wonder can they not comprehend what a pain problem is? And that treatment of it is complex? Perhaps beyond what they can do and needs the attention of someone who specializes in pain? Rather than, expecting ones patient to simply endure the pain, endure it while working full time... because that makes some sort of sense to them? Do they comprehend pain at all I wonder.

Eventually it comes down to this. Always to this. It is us that is causing this pain. Our lifestyle. We are overweight. Or we smoke. Or a diet is wrong. We change something. Then it is something else. Because they do not want to admit they do not know what to do and they ran out of ideas. 

And in the end what we want and deserve is chronic pain management. A better quality of life. To not just be in survival mode. To add those bits and pieces of our life back in there, if we can. We want a little more life and a little less suffering and that really should not be too much to ask for.

#winter #pains

It is just the beginning of winter and I ache so much it is hard to exercise. I am finding it quite difficult indeed. It now makes complete sense that the pain clinic fellow told me many people have trouble over the winter so that I should try to just 'maintain' and then come spring increase again. I am having a hell of a time 'maintaining'... and in fact am decreasing my time.

I also don't think my brain is quite understanding when to sleep with the darkness falling so early. I sleep ten hours on night and three the next and that seems to be my 'pattern'. Ten hours is not too bad since I feel good after that, even though I feel it is a waste of the day. But when I only sleep two to three hours and cannot sleep any more... that is nuts. That is just insane. I need at least four hours to function. Less than that is a killer migraine recipe. Try as I might though I just cannot sleep. I just lay there and twist and turn. I think it is partly pain related. And simply not much I can do about it. So I get up and read for a few hours and try taking a nap in there somewhere to compensate.

#yearn for #more

I wrote this about secret desires. About wishing I could just walk in the sunlight and live those lives unlived. Rather than the darkness, the pain and isolation.

I sort of do yearn for the sunlight. Because photophobia has haunted me a very long time. Before even my first migraine. I had a moderate case of photophobia with fibromyalgia you see. So it has been there since I was a teen. When the first migraine came along is when it became this intense creature that ruled my dark and sun. I love my house dark. Black out curtains, closed blinds and curtains. A few rooms of light for my spouse to enjoy.

The photophobia has made it unpleasant to leave the house during peak sun hours. Even with sunglasses. Without sunglasses I will get a migraine in about 15 minutes from the sun. With sunglasses about 45 minutes... as I found out when we were painting the fence. It is simply Too bright to handle. The migraine is swift and acute and always needs a triptan, which I can only use rarely.

So, yes, it would be nice if that was not so intense. If it were just gone.

But it more about wishing we could have more than this life. More than we have. More than our limitations. And maybe we will one day. If we can live within those limitations and have the life we desire... that is the key.

Who doesn't yearn for more.

Reflection Essay: All about the pain, chronic that is

Here is a repost of a essay I have written. I was in a 'mood' that day, but keep in mind I was also working full time with a substantial amount of pain... that will put anyone in a mood. And not like I'm lying here either. Just has some snark to it.

Facing that #PastSelf and #FutureSelf

When you are chronically ill we face the ghosts of our better selves all the time. Even though I have had invisible illnesses all my life, they have not had the same impact as the ones now. The impact increased with time. So I face those better selves with my former productivity and social life.

It does take a huge effort to free ourselves from that because we have to understand that person is a memory and not a reality. That person will never exist. We have to move forward to a better reality of ourselves. That is what we want to aim for. To better ourselves, our real, actual selves. And by doing so we can Never compare ourselves to our past selves in better health, only to our current self. If I make a minor improvement over my self of last week that is a cause for celebration. I have improved over me real self and not compared myself to some image that doesn't exist anymore.

What I also find difficult is that we often have no idea what we are moving Towards. What will be the outcome? It will not be no pain. No illness. Will it be work? Possibly it might. In my case possibly it might be part time work in the future. And this makes me sad, not happy. I lost all my potentiality and I have become this person only capable of holding down part time work which will hardly be satisfying to me in the least or pay any real bills. That is my best case scenario after all my hard work. What I am aiming for. I hope that in the end I am aiming for a more fulfilling life, with other aspects like a social life in there, and less suffering. I hope. I just have to accept I can have no career goals and ambitions now. Therefore not only do I have to free myself from my memories but I have to free myself from the image I have of myself in the future.

Brainless Blogger quote mix

 I have been thinking about making some simple videos on YouTube. I even have a small project I might engage in to promote invisible disability awareness. However, for now I was just checking out the YouTube system and so compiled some of my Brainless Blogger quotes I have collected and posted on my Facebook Page Making Invisible Disabilities Visible and put them to music.

Snap! #Winter

 As a Canadian, despite our very nice October, we knew the inevitable winter was coming. And with a cold snap it has arrived.

And with it... Pain. Yes, it increases that every day chronic pain level. That baseline pain level. It hurt to walk today even more than it has for the last few months. As I have had a flare up in my ankles for some unknown random annoying reason. That, hurt more today.

When I tried to exercise it was a venture that simply was not going to happen. I began and got nowhere fast due to the instant pain increase. When I stopped that ankle pain was even worse.

So Son of a Nutcracker indeed.

Deal with this every year though. I hope it will not interfere with my exercise too much. Maybe slow me down a bit I expect, but hopefully not too much.

But it is the season of the brittle coldness and pain. It is just a cold snap so far. We will get some better temperatures before it really gets brutal on us. Or so they say.

#Friendship and #ChronicIllness

Friendship with chronic illness in my past has always been something I have struggled to maintain. You see I am an introvert and for me friendship has always been something I have had difficulty in the long term. I value my alone time and so I have to balance that with social time with friends. Add in chronic illness and pain, well, that cuts into social time. You need to conserve your energy for important things like school or work. So you limit your social time. I admit only a few friends in my life have grasped how difficult it is for me to balance my obligations and my chronic illness, let alone anything else in there. So friends drifted away. Something I have always regretted but it was just the way it was. Sometimes it was simply distance. If they moved to far away I could not drive to meet them all the time, as that is something that uses that reserve of energy so those relationships inevitably drifted apart. Others it was simply that they get tired of the fact I say no more than yes.

Recently I have been hanging out with a select group of friends we play cards with. All of which work with my spouse. All great people. All of them seem to get when i cannot go out at all, which has happened on severe migraine days. Or when I have to cut an evening short for those days when a migraine just gets worse and worse to that intolerable point while there. Perhaps these people are just more mature. Or more empathetic. Or just good people.

I can say I really appreciate this attitude towards my chronic pain. That they do not mind at all. That they completely understand. That I need to take care of myself. It eliminates that feeling of guilt I would normally have. And that feeling of embarrassment for being That person who is 'ill all the time'.

I appreciate it also because it is important to me to get out of the house every once in a while. I can't do much. Can't do a lot. But to get out of the house once every couple of weeks to play cards? It is nice. Sometimes that is the Only time I have left the house. Unless I needed to go to the pharmacy. So that social interaction is important to me. Outside of my online friends, that is all I get.

Went to a concert... out of the house!

I went to a concert today, which is always a tricky venture if you have fibromyalgia and migraines. For FM it is the sitting. A lot of pain to be sitting that long. Worse to stand that long. For the migraines, well, that is just the sound and the light that are insane triggers. So needless to say the last time I went to a concert I was in my early twenties. Or maybe 20? I might have actually been 20. So about 17 years ago.

I went with my common law spouse and a friend of ours. This is us here. My spouse, me and our friend.

The concert was at a local reserve in a casino, so not a large concert hall, which is a good thing. Not crowded, or as noisy because of that fact. It was a country band, which again is not as intense or loud. I brought ear plugs because if it did get too loud you can wear ear plugs to dampen the noise and still hear it. I also brought my triptan and a pain killer... always be prepared I say.

It was not my idea to go to this concert, by the way. Not exact my first choice for entertainment given the migraines. And it was a country band called LoneStar. I am not fond of country music. At all. However, this band I was familiar with because I remember them from when I was younger. So I knew some songs and like a few. As in a couple. 2. I liked 2. But others were not bad. And they even played a Pink Floyd song and That I liked. The reason I went is because my spouse was very excited about the idea. He has never in his entire 40 years of existence been to a concert. I know. I was amazed as well. He loves country music. I know. Sad. lol. Therefore I wanted to go for him.

I was aware it was going to cause pain for the FM. It did cause pain for the FM. It was cramped uncomfortable seating. Therefore pain. And I started off in pain. I was aware the light show, which was at least not nuts, and the music that shakes the rib cage would also trigger a migraine. And yes it did, but not until the very end really. And I could handle that. It was not an insane acute migraine right away or mid show. It was pretty much near the end. And I came prepared.

And I always get a migraine. Every day. I had in fact had a migraine that day I had tamed already, so it was a given I was going to get one. So why prevent myself from going when my spouse really desires to, when I am going to get a migraine Anyway? Might as well trigger it while enjoying myself to be honest.

Not that this is the sort of thing I will do regularly. Or rarely even. I like to keep the migraines as tame as possible. And as soon as they begin... loud music and flashing lights are like torture.

Still. Got out of the house. And did a thing.

The Mask #Poem


This mask I wear
is a burden I bear

The pain is leaden;
dragging me to the ground
I smile through it;
don’t make a sound

This mask I wear
is my despair

You demand my silence;
With the guilt and shame.
I made the mask for you;
For you I play this game.

This mask is me;
All you can see

This is a poem I wrote about the mask I wore to get through work every day. A facade I used to mask the pain I was in from customers and co-workers and to get the job done. At the same time I faced a lot of stigma there and I wore a that mask to hide the suffering I was enduring because they were incapable of compromise but loved to play the 'you should feel guilty for being ill' game.  

Do #migraines make it hard to #think during an #attack?

This study needed to be done. Am I dumber that dirt during a migraine attack? Or we can phrase that as; am I cognitively compromised. Whatever. We need to know. Because it feels like the IQ was sucked right out of my ears.

Researchers in Brazil and Portugal took 39 people with episodic migraines to study if their thinking was impacted by a untreated migraine attack. That isn't to say treating the migraine would be different, when in fact it can actually enhance the problem, it is just that it creates more variables they would have had to consider.

The resulting findings were that, yes, indeed, we have trouble thinking during migraines and this is actually significant enough to measure. Awesome.

The study concluded "Cognitive performance decreases during migraine attacks, especially in reading and processing speed, verbal memory and learning, supporting patients’ subjective complaints. These findings suggest the existence of a reversible brain dysfunction during attacks of migraine without aura, which can relate specifically to migraine or be a consequence of acute pain processing by the brain."

"Trouble reading, processing, remembering . . . it’s all very common during a migraine attack.
We know that even some severe forms of temporary memory loss are connected to migraine attacks.  The symptoms can be quite serious, and sometimes will show up in very noticeable ways, such as difficulty recognizing faces, or slurred speech.
The question remains whether or not there is permanent brain damage from migraine.  Although there does seem to be some cumulative damage from migraine, study after study seems to confirm that permanent cognitive problems are rare.  In fact, one study even suggested that migraine brains stay sharper than other brains in the long run!" Headache and Migraine News

It might seem like this study is unnecessary since we All Know this. Yet, knowing it and proving it are different things. We all just say it is the prodrome. Or it is the pain. or it is the brain fog. We really do not know what is causing this. We just know it is there. So looking into it verifies it is there. How it manifests. What areas of thinking are affected. And that it is mostly transitory in nature.

I do know that I have that temporary memory loss often at work. And I would have difficulty recognizing faces. Made it very hard in my job... in Sales.

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