|In this picture is my common-law spouses shadow by the way. Instagram photo.|
This is a powerful statement "The only thing I know is this: I am full of wounds and still standing on my feet."
Suffering is something that is universal in experience. The degree perhaps changes, but we all experience it. We have an amazing capacity to endure it and overcome it.
With chronic pain I can say Here I Am. I am still here. Through all that pain. Here I stand. Although perhaps my track record in life is not 100% as they say, since I did try to end it all. But I have survived to tell the tale and even that tale taught me a lot about suffering and coping with suffering.
We earn every scar we have from this battle. We are covered in wounds and scars no one sees and earned every one of them. And we still stand.
It isn't a matter of our strength though. It is a matter of we want to live. We want to survive. We want to endure. How people live with pain... is that they do it... because they must. That is not strength, it is fact. It is this very desire to persevere that enables us to strive. Enables us to continue and fight. And then hope, well, hope is that which makes us believe there is something worth fighting for.
Yes, this battle that has wounded us and seared us with invisible scars changes us in profound ways. How could it not? Some of those ways are in fact positive ways. Some of the things we learn about ourselves, others and the world around us have a profound impact on how we see things.