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What is an item you have kept with you that reminds you of an important time in your life? Whether it was a good day, a stressful time, or a happy moment… why does this item remind you of that period of your life? 

Oddly enough I have a real hard time answering this question. I am just not that sentimental I guess. I have a cluttered house but it is mostly books. And I have books I have hoarded since my teens, because I love them that much. I will read some books over and over and over.

However, there is one other thing that I hoard other than books. Writing. I weed through it once in a while but I collect a lot of things I have written in the past. A sort of mental imprint of that time frame. Essays I have written even. I consider them to be like memories to me. So this blog serves the same purpose. It is slices of time, memories, all stitched together of my writings. As such it reflects the good, the philosophical and the bad in my life. I can take a peek back in time, into a specific mental state, and remember exactly what I felt in that moment.

I like a blog for that purpose really. I am a very introspective person and there are times I do want to reflect on past states of existence, but to also remember exactly how I felt and why. In particular my darkest of times. I want to know how to build resilience. I want to know how to cope in similar circumstances. So it is good to remember what I went through and how I overcame it. Sometimes coping is knowing we have been to some dark places and came out the other side. I like keeping a record of that process intact for others and for myself.

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