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Small Headache and Migraine Hopes: What small thing gives you hope for living with Headaches and Migraines? 


 I am more in a state of grim acceptance than hope lately. So I do not believe that things will get better and just rather deal with them as they are.

However, there is hope in that right there. That I can persist in coping with the pain as it is. As was not always the case. Because I have struggled with suicidal ideation and have in fact tried to kill myself in the past I have this ever current fear that I will not cope with the pain in the future. The future being this long, indefinite entity and I cannot know how things will change.

So i try to hold onto small hopes so that I know I can continue on and that I can indeed cope.

Little things like focusing on one thing that I am grateful for in a day. So that I make myself objectively look at my life and look at one positive element, because the pain is so very ready to point out the negative.

Celebrating small successes. Victory is mine! I got out of bed! Victory is mine! I went to work today. Victory is mine! Today was a tolerable pain day. Victory is mine! I was able to socialize without too much pain. Just focusing on what I was able to do and not what I Cannot do. Victory is mine! I was able to sleep right through the night... haha, kidding on that one, like that ever happens!

Just giving myself a break. Understanding that I need to follow my limits and moderate my lifestyle. By doing so I make my life much easier to handle. When I don't I suffer more consequences of it. Knowing that resting is something that I have to do sometimes and I should not feel guilty about that. The older I get the more I comprehend that I just do not fit this mold of society... this fast-paced, push yourself and never rest ideal we have. My body does not allow it and trying to do that means I suffer more. And a lot of being able to hold onto any hope at all is about being able to manage suffering in some way.

Sometimes as well I find a little hope in a sense of control I get from lifestyle changes. Even though I know they are not really a solution, but they are part of the puzzle and a part I actually have some control over. So when I exercise for ten minutes I feel good about that success. When i increase my exercise by a minute in a week... I feel good about that progress. Slow and steady. But still I feel like there is an element I have some control over. Even doing my daily meditation... I feel like I am calming my brain down and decreasing my stress and having wonderful physiological effects I cannot even see by that ten to fifteen minutes a day.

"The Migraine and Headache Awareness Month Blog Challenge is organized by the American Headache and Migraine Association." - See more at: http://www.ahmablog.com/2015/06/migraine-headache-blog-challenge-3.html#.VW_82EZBlAM

"The Migraine and Headache Awareness Month Blog Challenge is organized by the American Headache and Migraine Association."

Prompts to be found on: Awareness Month page.
Awareness Month page.

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