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Thoughts on Journals.



We didn't ask to live in the land of pain. That is what we got. These thoughts are the thoughts of my pain. Pain gives me some seriously negative thoughts. I think about the fact I am in a lot of pain today. For the most part, very low functioning as well.

We really do have to confront this overloading negativity because it has an in. It has the pain to console its thoughts out.

We have to be the ones fighting for the other side. But we need to work through it. Get the bad thoughts out. Get some good things in there. And I find working through this is a lot easier on paper.

To be honest this negative and trying to get my brain around thinking that way is done on paper every night. I find journalling to be really beneficial in getting things out, but also for noting the positive things in your day... despite the pain, you can usually find something decent to say about a day. But it can, on other days, be damned hard. Which is what makes it an important undertaking.

What I do at the end of the day in a journal is:


  1. I look for 3 things I ma grateful/thankful for. Grateful we had a showing on our house (we are trying to sell). Thankful I managed to shave two massive knots out of my eldest cat (Looks scraggly, but he feels better). Thankful my spouse bought me a Booster Juice after all our running around early in the day. 
  2. Then list 1 think you have accomplished that day. Just one simple thing you have done that you wanted to get done. Helped shave Frank to get rid of his bad knots.
  3. List 1 goal for the next day. Laundry
  4. pain levels: so for me migraine: 8 FM: 7
  5. Three main symptoms aware of: nausea, dizziness on standing, earache. 


Then since it is a journal you can write a blurb about anything you are thinking about, is bothering you or you want to remember. You can add any sort of daily topics you want for yours, these are just my general ones. The first two are to help us focus on the positive aspects of our day and studies have shown it helps with mood. When I am exercising I also keep track of my minutes and days.

Personally I think writing down negative thoughts gives them less power. And writing down the good things about my day and one thing I accomplish, makes me feel better about that day. Generally I see nothing positive in a day wasted from pain, so I have to work at it a bit to find anything I am grateful for. But there often little things.


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