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New anxiety

I have never had anxiety before. Aside from the anxiety associated with public speaking, of which I was terrified of. Anxiety about when my pain will hit has also never affected me. It will strike when it strikes and i will cope with it when it comes.

So it surprised me suddenly that I have been waking up with morning anxiety. It is like a surge of emotion, unpleasant overwhelming emotion, that socks it into my chest. Right as I start to wake up I get it.

These are the symptoms of morning anxiety as per Healthy Place:
  • Rapid heartbeat
  • Feeling weak, faint, or dizzy
  • Tingling or numbness in the hands and fingers
  • Nervousness, sense of terror, of impending doom or death
  • Feeling sweaty or having chills
  • Chest pains
  • Breathing difficulties
  • Feeling a loss of control
  • Fatigue
  • Insomnia
  • Trembling
  • Mental confusion
What I am getting is my heart is going wonky for sure, but what I really notice is this overwhelming feeling... that impending doom feeling. That is what I get. There is a feeling of loss of control. 

So what the eff is causing this anyway?

The article on  Healthy Place lists three things

  1. Cortisol- Essentially Cortisol, a stress hormone, is produced in the morning hours. If we are stressed, then more is produced and this makes us feel anxious. 
  2. Low blood sugar
    “Another reason why symptoms can be worse in the morning is because your blood sugar is low when you first wake up. You have gone all night without food. It’s important to maintain a constant blood sugar level because the brain uses sugar, also known as glucose, as its fuel. If blood sugar levels are too low or drop too fast, then the brain starts running out of fuel.”
  3. Environmental considerations: like loud environments and alarm clocks startling you awake. 

My psychologist believe the anxiety I have stems from thinking about the pain I have to work in that day. And it is giving me anxiety. I am not sure about this. Since the anxiety starts when i am barely even conscious yet. Just become unconscious and BAM anxiety.  

It does however, concern me. He recommended doing relaxation or meditation directly after waking to hopefully get these episodes to stop.  

I wonder if this is how anxiety begins... with these small attacks in the morning and it just builds from there. I don't want anxiety. So i will do what I can to follow what he says for it. It is just so unusual an experience for me. Interesting to note Cortisol levels in FM are higher than normal, so maybe that is why FM so maybe that is the reason and nothing to do with what I am thinking, since I am actually not even alert when it happens. 

All I know is that it isn't a pleasant feeling. When i get it I try to immediately calm myself down and relax. I fear it getting more severe, so right away I go into my relaxation mode. 
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