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New Year; Same old same old

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Here is what I wrote about New Years Resolutions

We have to be careful about them because we have limited energy and our mood can be hit hard by the failure of too unrealistic goals. So small achievable goals are the way to go. But I have to say after the holidays I have what you can a mood let down. I enjoy the holidays and then there is always this New Year business... and really it is 'oh, another year of This' business. It is exhausting to think of another year. Maybe because I have such intense fatigue lately; anything is exhausting. I mean, New Years came in with a wicked migraine. It was like my brain was saying 'Welcome to the same old same old.'

I have goals in mind. And I hope to make them habits if I can just get around the depression and fatigue somewhat to manage to do things. Not to mention bad pain days, which seem to out number good pain days. Since I have been tracking my migraine days recently, yeah, bad pain days way outnumber good pain days. I haven't been tracking FM pain but that fluctuates like a wave. Always present but then surges higher for a few weeks and then recedes to baseline and then swells up again.

 So small goals... these are a massive deal to us. Each step is a freaking mountain climbed. Don't give yourself Mt. Everest here. Give yourself a small mountain and in four to six months assess your progress on that goal and adjust accordingly. Make it easier or harder. Depending on your progress.

Anyway, I don't feel well in the new year. I always feel a mood drop. Which statistically, by the way, is typical with depression so watch out for That. I am personally taking it a little easy as a result. Pain is high, mood is low. Not the time to be all on top of my goals for sure. More time to be on the self-care zone. Actually, more on the 'get out of bed, get dressed and eat zone'. I wish I could do something about fatigue because that is killer. Feel more like a zombie than anything.

Also, I should point out as a Canadian it is in the midst of the frigid winter here. Not exactly awesome for mood. Or, by the way, pain.

And if you are also feeling this holiday let down feeling I would recommend some self-care. I have been doing some reading and writing. The two things I do to improve my mood. We will settle into normal coping existence again. This is a normal feeling for people with depression to feel after the holidays. Maybe normal for everyone? No idea on that one. Maybe it is. I do know it is also high pain time of year as well. So we have to up our coping skills certainly.


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